Ok, so I am so worried about what others will think of me when they find out I have mental health issues. I know that people closest to me will still love me just the same but I worry what others will think. I like to think that I am not one of those that look badly at people with mental health issues, but deep down it’s not true. Mental health is scary. If I found out that my next door neighbour was under a psychiatrist, I would be very wary of them. I don’t want people to think that of me. I’m not a danger, I’m not a complete mental case. How can I end the stigma if I feel it myself?
There’s also the manic depression element. Knowing that I am susceptible to depression, I know that I avoid people with depression. That sounds awful but it is true. I know that spending time with people that are so down will bring me down so I avoid it. I don’t want people to avoid me cause they think I might bring them down. I’m not that down most of the time.
I suppose I will have to accept that I might be avoided or judged and I have to change the way I think.